tuburan cove beach resort | buruanga, aklan
Tuesday, December 29, 2020
hey, there! here's a collection of photos and clips i got during our most recent buruanga trip, but before that i'd like to put out some quick (which ended up to be a bit lengthy) side note that has nothing to do with these photos that i'm about to share.
hmmm... i'm in this stage in my life again that i'm quite hesitating to share stuff on my social media accounts, but if you know me, i'm such a memory hoarder. i love documenting stuff. i love collecting photos and videos of both the special and simple moments, and i like to put them out in some place that i could always go back to whenever, wherever. social media is pretty much the easiest medium that i could put them into, but gosh, i really got this love/hate relationship towards them that i can't stay on them for too long or else i'm gonna lose my sanity.
facebook, oh facebook. i don't share too much in this platform 'cos it's just too crowded for me. although i don't have lots of facebook friends, i still feel like there are tons of eyes in there, so i always drop this every time.
late in 2019, i deleted my instagram account because it felt like it was serving me no good any longer. i had a good number of followers in that old account back then -- from my family to my friends and acquaintances in school, and even up to some strangers that i never met, but then one, day it just felt like i am no longer comfortable posting stuff that many people could see, also the newsfeed felt overwhelming. and my best way out at that time is to permanently delete that account, and so i did. not too long after, i created a new one to serve as some creative outlet for me, and it was actually initially created to serve as some little extension of this blog. i used to have it in public, but recently, i decided to put it in private because i grew a little uncomfortable with the public feature again. idk, i'm just uncomfortable with people knowing my whatabouts and whatnot, although i'm pretty sure no one cares anyway.
twitter... the same thing happened. i deleted my old account and recreated a new one. i have been keeping the new account as intimate as it could since then, and i always make sure to delete followers that i don't know. it's the place where i share my random thoughts that i usually don't say aloud, so i'd like to feel safe in there as much as possible.
okay, okay, i don't think i'm putting my point across at this time yet and i have already blabbed to much, so to cut the story short, i'm in torn. i always want to post photos and videos in social media to serve as my gallery of memories but then, i'm again at this point where i don't like to post too much on those platforms. i don't like to show people (especially those i know in real life) what i'm currently up to. that's why, i'm back here again... trying to revive this blog for the nth time already. this is my safest place, my humble abode here on the internet, because if i post something in here, nobody could see it right away unless they will intentionally visit this site. if you know me personally, i really am not the kind who would tell stuff about me that the other person aren't curious about. if you don't ask, i won't tell. that's it. this blog is for myself and i post here for me, but if you're curious, you're always welcome to pay a visit. =)
by this time, allow the following photos to tell a quick story of this trip.
we quickly stopped at the longest bridge of aklan and took some few pictures before the rain started pouring hard. |
and this is another quick stopover in jawili falls, aklan. |
we were like playing inside with the vehicles as we tried to take photos on this landmark. |
and after some three to four hours of travel (including the quick stopovers and our breakfast), we're almost here. this is the way to the resort's entrance. |
and finally we're here! |
we needed to go uphill to get to the entrance of the resort and then downhill to get to the main area. it was breakthtaking, yes! lol. |
what a beautiful view right here. |
and of course, i always need to take some mandatory shoe-fie every time i get to visit a new place. *wink wink |
and the resort people welcomed us with some delicious lemonade. |
we're now ready to dip ourselves in the salty water. |
then, i watched them ride the kayak. |
we then went up and enjoyed the cold water in the pool. |
the dishes we had for lunch were really appetizing! |
this is my most favorite group photo during the trip (insert jude who took this photo haha). |
okay, i'm awkward like that. well, thanks to bam and her boyfriend for this photo and most of the photos. |
and we chilled by the beach. they drank beer while i enjoyed the view ('cos i don't drink, nope). |
just dropping by
Monday, November 16, 2020
well... hello there. seems that spilling my heart out right here has been a little too difficult for me to do these days. or maybe putting my emotions down into words now has become the hardest part.
anyway, life has been one heck of a terrible ride lately. i got sick. i lost a bunch of weight. i got cheated. my insecurities are at its peak. i’m struggling with managing my time and my life in general. i’ve been making horrible life decisions. and the list goes on.
awful.
that’s how it is for me, but i’ve still been trying to cope up. i’ve been toughing up to survive. i am trying my best to protect my peace. after everything that happened in my life the past months, it became so easy for me to forget my worth these days, but i’ve been working really hard to remind myself that i am worthy. i am worthy of love. i am worthy of effort. i am worthy of appreciation. i am worthy of anything and everything.
sometimes, when i am already a little too desperate, i just can’t help but want my old life back where i used to be peaceful and happy. but oh no, it shouldn’t be. it shouldn’t be like that. i should be good with the life that i currently have. i should be grateful for the new people i’ve met and still yet to meet along the way. i should be thankful for the new experiences, including those quite awful ones. i wouldn’t grow if i stayed in that “old life” of mine. so i should embrace this uncomfortable phase. i should learn to live with those crying-myself-to-sleep moments at night. i should live with these confusions. i should live with some of the unpleasant parts of life. i should live with them, but not always, not forever. i must learn and i shall get through them. then i can enjoy the sunny days. after all, nothing stays the same forever. we’re learning. we’re growing.
and also... i shouldn’t be too hard on myself. i am human and it’s okay to feel.
the sunday currently | it's been a while
Sunday, June 14, 2020
things i did and haven't done in quarantine
Sunday, June 07, 2020
musingi did. i wrote down my frustrations, my anger, my fears. i finally put them down on paper. i might have not put them all out, but i wrote down most of them. i wrote a number of letters to God. i cried my heart out on the once empty pages and filled them in. it somehow saved me. it gave me an opportunity to physically see those thoughts that has been consuming my entire being. i quite pondered upon them. i allowed myself to feel. i let go of the judgment. i realize i have to stop repressing my emotions just because they ain't positive and don't seem right. i am human after all and it's okay to feel. i always have to remind myself, it's okay to feel.
i haven't done this one. i mean, journaling was already some sort of brain dumping, but i still have a lot of to-do's, to-buy's and to check-out's hanging at the back of my mind. my head still ain't clear. maybe after i publish this entry, i have to grab a piece of paper and put them on a list. i just have to. my mind ain't a tray that can collect and collect and collect. or it could be, but i have to empty it out somehow to have some room for some new stuff.
i did this only for a week. i quite have some time for myself. i enjoyed some quiet nights where i don't have to get bombarded by the junks on social media. it felt good. i have always been the kind with some love/hate relationship with my social media accounts that my friends are not anymore surprised if i disappear and they already know where to reach me. i've been back in this crazy and chaotic hole of social media again and i actually found myself more active now than i was few months ago, but don't worry, i think i can't hesitate to leave once things get a little too poisonous for me again. after all, there's nothing to miss out. things will still be there later, and if i can never see the things i haven't seen, then maybe i am not supposed to see them anyway. and if you, yes you, have been pondering whether to take a little break from social media or not, then you may take this as a sign. here's me reminding you to not be afraid to take a break. it's good. i promise you, it's good.
this became much easier when i stopped going through social medica for awhile, so yep, tried to simultaneously do this along with number #3 above. it actually makes a big difference when i don't start my day with my phone in my hand. i don't eventually get reactive, i get to have more done in the morning, and i tend to be a little more productive throughout the day. also, i can get more sleep 'cos i don't have to stay up so late at night with my phone in my hand while the lights are already off and everyone has fallen asleep already. i'm trying to make this a habit already, but i must admit, it's difficult because i easily get tempted to just lie down with my phone after a long day until i fall asleep, but i'm working on it. i really am trying to work on it.
alright, i finally finished a book this year so far. it's good vibes, good life by vex king. it's a light and easy read and i love the insights. i actually made the committment to finally finish it when i was having some hard time dealing with my emotions and was enduring a bruised heart. can't deny that i'm having some difficult times these days when it comes to managing my emotions which, in return, has taken a toll on my productivity. i am still in this internal battle, but i am trying to work on this. slowly. one step at a time. anyway, the next book i'm trying to finish right now is the atomic habits by james clear.
yey! i was actually happy when we climb the hill nearby with my sister, my cousins, and my mom. it felt good to have been able to sweat so much and exposed my morena skin under the sun. perharps i gotta do this one a little bit more. once a month will do for now, maybe.
okay, i think i can consider this as something i haven't done. i was planning to finish a video which is basically just a compilation of short and random clips i took during the first quarter of the year. i have started it already but i stopped working on it while not even halfway through. hmm... maybe i'll try to finish it by the end of this month. let's see!
hmm. i never have done this and i don't think i will anytime soon. i included this one in the list because it feels like it's something i really need to learn because that's what people say, "girls should know how to cook." and that it's pretty much what everyone else is doing and trying to learn while on lockdown, but i suppose i gotta put it off for now. cooking is not something i personally enjoy. it feels so much of a chore for me. i am not a fan, but nope don't get me wrong. i am still very open to learning it, of course, who wouldn't be, but maybe i just wouldn't do it too soon -- not when i just thought of doing it just because everyone else has been doing it. a random fun fact, though: i won a cooking contest during a nutrition month celebration when i was in fourth grade (those who grew up in a public school could probably relate). i cooked my favorite dishes, pinakbet and ampalaya with egg! my mom is a good cook and she was my coach at that time. i did it for the grades. lol.
oh gosh... it feels so good to just dance my nerves away when no one's watching and with no judgment at all. lol. i am pretty much doing this every now and then, whenever i want to, and every time i feel like i need to cheer myself up. you must try it out! don't judge yourself =)
huh, nope, i haven't done this yet. it's a little too difficult to start. i basically just don't know how and where to begin. but i know, i shall do this the soonest possible. i am quite losing who i actually am. if i won't do this, i might find myself easily gets swayed by the beliefs and opinions of other people, and that, my friend, is quite alarming. may i know how often you do this one? how do you do it?
reconnecting...
Saturday, March 28, 2020
musing- i’m going to journal. freely. i’ll let my heart out. i’m frustrated, mad, sad, worried, insecure, lost. i’ll let these all out before they consume my entire being.
- i’m gonna brain dump. write down every to-do list that i can think of, groceries list and all other things that i should buy after this whole lockdown. i’m gonna list down sub-tasks for my bedroom makeover project. i gotta create tons of lists, they may be necessary or not. i just need to put them down onto paper to free my head. i need to free myself.
- i’ll disconnect and go on with my days without checking instagram, twitter, and facebook. i’ll temporarily cut everyone off. yes, emphasis on "temporarily." i’m basically tired of everyone else’s shizz. i need some time off. just a week and i’ll be back. i just need to save myself.
- i’ll go a week without checking my phone first off in the morning and will also stop bringing it to bed. i’ll stop checking my phone. i’ll stop waiting for a text. it hurts my eyes. it’s unhealthy. i don’t want it to continue screwing me off (or maybe just for a little while at least).
- i’m gonna finish a book. i’ve never finished even one book so far this year and it’s already the end of the first quarter. maybe it’s now time to do so. just one. only one.
- i’ll go out and spend some time under the sun. maybe climb a hill nearby. take photos. leave my phone. reconnect with nature. it’s much needed.
- i’ll create something. that may be a blog post, a video blog or whatever, i just have to create something.
- i’ll cook at least one dish. i’m twenty-four and i still don’t know how to cook. maybe it's now high time to learn.
- i’ll dance. even if i don’t know how to. even if i look crazy. i’ll dance. i need to move my body. i need to enjoy some quick moments with myself and be crazy. freely. with no judgment. at all.
- i will take time for myself. reconnect. recenter my values. it’s been a while and i feel like i don’t know myself anymore. i need to befriend her once again and make her feel loved and appreciated. i need to be secured even if i'm just by myself. i can’t depend my security on someone or something else, because that, my friends, is not security. never it will be. things and people are temporary. we’ll never exactly know when is their time to leave. now, i gotta learn how to do all these without building my walls too high -- without distancing myself too much. i’m not yet sure how, but i will. i need to.
organizing my finances
Saturday, March 14, 2020
adultinggrowing up, money has been a taboo topic in my surroundings. people avoid talking about it that it became an awkward topic already, even for me. i also grew up in a household where my parents would usually have some petty fights over money, and way back when i was still a little kid, if someone gives me a bill (as a gift), i don't accept it because i used to not be allowed to touch them (yes, that was my parents' discipline and i am not even kidding).
admittedly, money was scarce for me. my parents didn't earn much. it used to be just enough for our necessities, sometimes it was even less than that. and my parents, at some point, didn't bother to actually manage their money. it only comes and it goes. that's just it.
after taking a business-related degree in college and getting a career out of it, i've seen the light to get out of some financial insecurity spiral. and now that i am earning my own dime already, not having to financially depend on my mom or anyone else anymore, i decided to track down every peso that is coming in and out of my pocket.
and if you'll ask me, yes, quickbooks did generate this profit and loss statement for me. all i'm doing is, to enter my daily transactions into it whenever possible, or at least, on a weekly basis, based on what i have recorded in my bullet journal.
it's very important for me to write down all my expenses, compute the balance, and count my cash on hand to check if it matches with the computed balance every end of the day. yes, it might sound like a lot of work, but believe me it takes me only five minutes to do that before i hit the bed. all i have to do is to go through what happened during the day and take note of all the activities that involved some cash flow.
i also make it a habit to check my bank balances at least weekly so i am aware of my standing and to arrest any unusual charges, if any.
with this current system that i have, i am now able to see where my money went during the first two months of this year in a glance. and i love the fact that i can easily compare them so i'd know in which particular category i need to spend less. i have to cover my income figures, though, for some privacy, but i can also see which month i earned less and which month i earned more. for this one, particularly, the total paycheck that i received in February is more than that in January, so that makes my net income in February definitely more than the past month, given the fact that i also have less expenses this month than the previous one.
for some supporting background, i am living with my parents still so that saves me from any rent expense, but of course, i volunteered to contribute in the household which include utility bill payments, sometimes allowance for my siblings, and some few knickknacks here and there. also, i've done a very little grocery shopping these two months (none in January even), because my mom saved me from that (yep, the simple joys of living at home lol).
those bank fees include all transaction fees NOT limited to the bank transactions only. if i make any transaction and there's some fees, that would fall into that category.
the beauty expenses include those money i spent for mani-pedi sesh, footspa, etc.
the birthday expenses is pretty much self-explanatory, and January is my birth month, that's why.
the cellphone expenses include those amount that i pay for my monthly postpaid plan and prepaid load to my extra number when needed.
clothing expenses are those clothes, bags, and/or wallets that i've purchased during the month.
dog expenses is also self-explanatory. there's none for february because mom volunteered to shoulder them all. yay!
entertainment expenses are all those eating outs, movie dates, my netflix and spotify expenses, and all the other kinds of entertainment.
fare expenses are, again, pretty much self-explanatory. i commute EVERYDAY, but luckily work is just a jeepney ride away from home which could cost me at least P8.00 per ride. if i spent more for fare than necessary, that means, i went somewhere else than work and home. lol.
i bet you already know what gifts are, but those are not only limited to birthday presents and the like. this could include some sponsorship and donations made for the period.
i take rice for lunch at work and i just buy ulam in a carinderia (wow, this sounds so conyo), so that's what those lunch expenses are for.
other expenses are, of course, those that doesn't fall in any category. more often than not, they are just one-time expenses or those that happen very less frequently.
skin-care expenses are pretty much those that i spent to watsons. not everything is actually skin-care stuff, but i was just too lazy to break it down, so i just put the total from the watsons receipt into this category (nope, don't be lazy like that hehe).
snacks and travel... i don't have to explain them any further.
and that's pretty much it! that's how i am tracking my finances.
if you're like me who's struggling with your finances, not knowing where your money went and always surprise how they're gone by the wind, i suggest you start tracking them. JUST START. count how much money you currently have and treat them as your beginning balances. then from now on, list down every transaction that you make which involves cash flow (every peso that is going in and out of your pocket/wallet). personally, i keep separate trackers for my cash on hand and every bank accounts, it's a little more work at first, but it makes things less confusing for me.
here is the tracker that actually worked for me:
you can track your money whatever way you want -- apps, excel, google sheet, and many more.
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