The Days Are Quite Flying Fast

Monday, July 30, 2018


A little more than a day and July would now be waving a “see-you-again.” Perhaps August can’t wait to say hello for another round. Why are the days flying so fast? Omg, wait.

How did I even spend the days of July? Hmm, well… Still, I have not been keeping track of my days. I was just kind of going with the flow. I’ve kept myself from worrying too much and just tried not to care.

If you ask me how I’ve been doing, an honest answer would be, I’ve been fine and feeling better. I’ve been keeping in touch with some good ol’ friends and did some catching up’s with them. I’m still trying to rekindle the flame inside me that was once put out. I still feel stuck, but not really.

Yes, another “Sunday-currently-ish” entry, but I’m posting this on a Monday just because. I figured I’d better do this every end of the month. Maybe, but nope, I still could not promise that I’d be consistent with this. Lol. But I am trying to. Really.

Okay. Enough blabbing, so I am currently…

READING

The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson. I have this on my to-read list for a few months now, and just a few days ago, I decided to give it a shot, and daaaaaang! I was only in the first few pages yet, but I already got hit so hard. I haven’t gone far with the book yet ‘cos I want to keep it slow and absorb things first before I flip through the next pages, but so far, I like it very much, although the “f” word was mentioned for quite a thousand times already and I’m guessing there’s still more to come. Lol.

WRITING

I haven’t been writing anything except a little something for this blog. I mean, the stuff that I post in here if we can consider them as “writing”. No journal, no question diary, none, nada. I am not too sad nor broken to write anything. Idk. Nothing is worth writing for me now. And even if I try, the right words are nowhere to be found.

LISTENING

Right now, right at this moment, I’m listening to this playlist I’ve made just a little few days ago. Lately, I just wanna free my mind. Release all the pressure of this adulting kinda stuff, and just let loose. I am not good at dancing, but I just wanna dance all the stress away (at least in my head lol). Also been listening to some public chill playlist available in Spotify lately.

THINKING

I haven’t been thinking too much, except that a big project that I need to work on manages to cross my mind from time to time. I want to brush it off for now, although I have been putting it off for weeks already (sssshhh sorry). I mean, please, give me some time. I promise I’ll get back to it soon.

HOPING

I’m hoping that I’ll get to be consistent with my bullet journal this time. Yes, I’m trying it once again. FOR THE ~NTH~ TIME THIS YEAR. The past months are quite a fail, but nope, I am not giving up yet.

NEEDING

I, myself, do not know what I am needing right now. Or at least, I just couldn’t think of any, but God knows, so I’m more than fine. No need to worry. He’ll provide.

FEELING

I’m on the first day of my period today and idk what to feel. I mean, yeah, like the usual, I feel extra tired. Also, I didn’t feel like talking for like the whole day. I wasn’t sad but I didn’t feel like smiling too. Idk. I had to force my laugh and smile (a little) so I wouldn’t look snobbish or whatever in the office today, especially that we have a new trainee. Also, I felt irritated and was trying my best to not let it show on the outside, because hello??? I don’t wanna affect anyone with my mood. It’s no one’s fault anyway. It’s just my hormones acting up.

So yeah, that’s it! I am always more than happy to post stuff like this.


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sincerely,
riz


Saturday & Cancelled Plans

Saturday, July 21, 2018


one. I woke up earlier than I should today and chose to stay a bit longer in bed. It’s a Saturday and I have no work-related stuff to worry about, so hooray!

two. I was supposed to go out today, run some errands and do some grocery shopping, but I opted to just stay in and put it off until tomorrow.

three. Saturdays are my laundry days, but not today just because it might ruin my nails. I just painted them last, last night and it wasn’t easy just because. Lol. For some reason, I do handwash some of my clothes so yeah... perhaps some girls could relate. I would like to know that I am not the only one. =)

four. So far, I almost had no rice today. I just didn’t feel like having some. I had hard-boiled eggs and a cup of coffee during breakfast, and some siomai during lunch.  I am not feeling hungry at all. Idk. This is just one of those days.

five. I have been studying the financial figures of an entity ‘cos I need to come up with some proper Accounting system for them, and guess what? I am not even halfway through it. There are still tons of transactions that I need to analyze and I am supposed to continue studying it today, but look what I am doing now??? Some days I can feel some regrets about accepting the responsibility, but I have to convince myself that I need this at least for a little growth in my career.

six. Something is making me feel anxious since yesterday and as much as I want to talk about it here, I can’t. I just can’t. Maybe I am just overthinking. Ah yeah right, I gotta win over my thoughts.

seven. I just finished watching Midnight Sun with my brother and my cousins. And aaaaahhhh my heart. Also, I love the soundtrack. Yaaay. *whispers* It was a good cry.

Currently, I am just waiting for dinner to be served (I should have been helping, ahuh). Hmm, so how was your day? :)

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sincerely,
riz

random musings

Friday, July 20, 2018


+ people come and i treasure them. people go and i still treasure them. i won’t chase. i won’t run after them, but that does not mean i don’t care because i do. i always do.

+ perhaps being twenty-two is about getting lost, walking with no specific destination until i find myself coming back to the things i love -- to the things that really matter to me. i’ll get there one day. perhaps not now, but someday.

+ six months in my current work and i realized that a workplace would never be perfect. at first, i thought it is, but nope, it isn’t. and i still have this question in my head yet to be answered: what makes a person stay or go? is it the work or the people? maybe, just maybe, i’ll find the answer in me.

+ i missed taking photos of the sky. it has been awhile.

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sincerely,
riz

Down to the Other Half

Sunday, July 01, 2018


Another month has just ended, and here I am, motivated to restart my life and willing to pick myself up once again. We’re now down to the second half of the year, wow! And June, oh June, went by too swiftly for me. Things were quite a blur. I feel like I have a lot to share through this post, but at the same time, none. Lol. Idk. I just cannot gather my thoughts in one place just yet, so I suppose, a Sunday Currently entry could save me from this.

Anywoo, let’s now jump unto what I am currently up to:

READING

I’ve got a list of books to read, but I am still stuck in the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. I’m not sure if I already mentioned it here, but it is actually a required-reading in our company, and I am now on the third habit. I try to read, at the very least, five pages a day, but sadly, I cannot do it every day. Anyway, I am now on the third habit (STILL. Lol. I am almost six months in my work now, but yeah).

WRITING

I have been doing this Questions Diary (it's a mobile app) where I have to answer one question a day. I thought it would be easy, but I was wrong. It made me realize how much I haven’t taken the time to know myself, but it is helping me a lot. I have not planned to do it everyday, though but I am enjoying it. I actually thought about sharing the questions and my answers here in this blog, but not now perhaps. Also, I am starting my bullet journal again (I hate how much I am so motivated every beginning of the month and then lose all of it the next day).

LISTENING

I haven’t been listening to a lot of songs lately except the songs in my playlist in Spotify. It is just a mix of everything -- a mix of all kinds of songs that I enjoy listening to.

THINKING

I have been thinking about the things that I wanna achieve in life. My goal then was to become a CPA then I’ll get my first job, and I would enroll myself in a masters degree right after I become a CPA. I have already achieved the first two, and we all know what my next step should be, but something got into the way. Yesterday, I went back to my Alma Mater to attend a parents’ orientation for my brother (’cos mom was busy), and I saw the long line of people enrolling in the graduate school and I felt the strong urge to join the line. If only I had the documents needed by then, I might have enrolled myself impulsively. But as I’ve said, something got in the way. I’ve just committed myself into something that would probably consume my Saturdays, and it’s career-related, although I am not fully committed to it yet because, if ever, my post-grad classes would also be on Saturdays, so yeah, I am in torn. I am also thinking about purchasing something which would be helpful in my current plans, but I am still having second thoughts since we already have this thing which could serve as an alternative at home, but my issue is, it’s not mine alone, and I couldn’t use it whenever I want because I have to share it with everyone else.

HOPING

I am greatly hoping for better days and I also hope to finally come up with a decision.

NEEDING

All I need for now, other than God’s loving arms, is enough courage and motivation to fulfill the things that I wanna achieve very soon.

FEELING

I am feeling good. I am feeling great. Aaaaahhhh I have been longing for this feeling of satisfaction for days, and now it’s here. I don’t wanna put it into waste.

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And yaaaaay! I missed posting a lengthy entry and now it’s here! :) How have y’all been doing?

 

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sincerely,
riz

 

sincerely, riz