Pretty Much on a Slump

Saturday, September 01, 2018 Philippines

Only four months ‘til this year ends and I am so not satisfied with who I turned out to be this year, so far. I have been pretty much on a p-muls (uhuh, doing it backwards, Detective Peralta *winks) to say the least.

The pictures above, I took them when I was on holiday last Monday.

After it rained so hard in our place (with matching lightning and thunder), I went out and had a walk through my grandma’s beloved plants, and yeah, took some photos of them. I was not actually planning to spend my holiday at home, and it was quite my first time to not go to the office on a holiday (except during the Holy Friday last March) since I started working. Yep, I am as diligent as that. Lol kiddin’. It’s just that sometimes, I find it much better to go to work and get paid than to stay at home doing nothing all day. Anyway, I just miss the feeling of being at home. Alone. And I pretty much had that last Monday since my sibs had some school activities to attend to despite the holiday. So yeah, I quite had the time to reflect about my life, and it lowkey just got me a bit stressed out, ‘cos the things that have been going on in my life are quite the opposite of how I wanted them to be. But that’s fine. That’s just fine.

On another note, I was planning to be out this weekend to just unwind and loosen up, but then because of the not-so-good weather in my place, it got canceled. It got me a bit frustrated ‘cos I wanted it to happen so badly and I have been looking forward to it, but the weather screwed up the plan, and it’s something beyond my control or anyone else’s, so okay, I just had to shrug it off.

And to get rid of the unpleasant feeling that I have in my system today, I settled to deep clean my room, change the sheets, go through all my drawers and get rid of the things that are no longer serving me any good. And I found a lot of unused stationery items, which I actually already forgot that I have. Also, notebooks of different sizes, some with only the first few pages I have used, others I have left unwritten at all. (But nope, I am not throwing them away). I’ve also found lotsa loose papers with my random thoughts written on them, old photos of me and my friends, receipts, receipts, receipts. Sometimes, decluttering really brings me nostalgia because of the good ol’ stuff I get to find again, but yeah, I have freed some space now, and I feel lighter. And who else loves the feeling of lying down on newly-changed sheets? Because I do, I really do. It’s like a whole new life, another chance to start having things figured out. Lol.

Alright, I guess that’s all I could say for now. Not sure if I am even making any sense, but it always feels good to just not care and just type and type as the words come out.



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