this time last year

remembering what it was like around this time last year, i'm still amazed as to where i am now.

it's almost been a year since i took the big exam, which most of the accountancy students are terrified about. i would be lying if i'd say it wasn't terrifying because it was. IT. FRICKIN’. WAS. those were the most emotional days of my life. i was anxious. i've been crying because i didn't know what to do. i've spent long hours in the shower -- crying. and was still crying even over dinner in front of my friends. it actually felt like giving up was the easiest way out, but good thing that i have held on to his grace. i've accepted that i cannot do it by myself, that i cannot do it without him; and man, that really gave me the light when i felt like i was already walking in an entire darkness. God gave me hope. i cannot remember a day that He left my side and that should be enough for me to remember that He will never leave me. ever. especially on that point in my life.

i dared to fight the battle with Him. i gave my best, and He did the rest for me.

and so here i am now...

i was crying as i finished this night's devotional. it felt like my heart is being squeezed in a VERY GOOD way. i'm still astonished of how great and amazing God is. i swear, He really works wonders!

and since it's CPALE season again (exam actually starts this coming saturday, 6th of october), i've thought about sharing a few of my favorite verses. these certainly gave me the hope and the strength to go on and to fight when it was already so tempting to just give up. so just in case, anyone out there also needs them, here they are:

• 1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxieties on Him because He cares.
• Isaiah 41:10 Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am you God; I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
• Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path.
• Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.
• Isaiah 35:4 Tell everyone who is discouraged. Be strong and don't be afraid. God is coming to your rescue.
• Philippians 4:13 I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.

also, here are my most played songs (also the songs that i was playing in the shower while crying my heart out):

• i surrender - hillsong worship
• broken vessels - hillsong worship
• God will make a way - don moen

GOD BLESS TO EVERYONE WHO WILL BE TAKING THE CPALE! claim it. pray for it. achieve it.

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sincerely,

riz

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