My Ati-Atihan 2019 Experience

Wednesday, January 23, 2019

This is my first ever Ati-Atihan experience, and safe to say, although not perfect, it was quite a blast!

We decided to leave for Kalibo after mom's work on Saturday, January 19th. The ride was quite not smooth and I was sleepy the whole time. I can barely remember the time we arrived, well, I didn't keep track of the time that much, but as soon as we arrived, we headed to one of my mom's company's (not her company, but the company she's working for) customers. We had our dinner there (hooray for free dinners!) After we ate, we took a little break and we started roaming around. Good thing there were some locals that my mom knows who guided us around.

We did a lot of walking and roaming around. There were also lotsa people, mostly with drinks in their hands. There were music and drum rolls and fireworks.


We also had free accommodation for a night stay, but the place was a little far from the main venue. It was already a little late when we arrived there. I swear I was really exhausted and can't wait to lie down that night. We didn't have enough rest because we have to leave early the next day for another walking and roaming around session in the town. Lol. I am not even sure if the rest of us were able to sleep, but I am certain I did. I was too tired, that as soon as I lied down, I didn't anymore have any idea what happened next because I immediately fell asleep.

We woke up very early the next day and we traveled to the city, then headed to Jollibee to have our breakfast. After breakfast, we bought some Ati-atihan accessories and started the "adventure."

And it is by this time when all the walking and walking and walking and walking and walking and walking started. I swear, we walked A LOT, but nope, I am not complaining. Yep, it was tiresome but it's something that I wouldn't mind doing again.

Oooppps. Looks like my brother is a little tired already.

And there was a sea of strangers all over the place. We have seen different kinds of people, it feels great to not care at all about them. I'm kinda a people-pleaser, I must admit, and I always wanna appear good to anyone, but at that time, I just didn't care. They don't know me anyway. I'm ninety-nine percent certain that they'll saw me only once and it's only by that time, so why should I care? I just enjoyed my time off from the mundane things of every day. I seized the moment of having to spend some time in a place other than home. I watched people, observed them, and wondered what's on their minds. I wondered what's going on with their lives. Do they have it easy? Or is there something they're going through? Do they join the festival for the hope of having some way out? Or this is their way of taking a break? Are they here as devotees of the patron saint? Or are they here to party and have fun? Or perhaps they're here so they can have something to post in their social media profiles? Some might be hoping to be finding "the one," that this event might be a door for a story that is yet to unfold. There were too many questions in my head with all those answers I might never know.

And now, it got me asking myself, "Why am I here?" Well... I was here simply because my mom invited me to be there. Yep, that's true, but more so, I was here because I wanna get out of my comfort zone for a moment, and to get away from my tedious routine for a little while. These days I feel like I am not living my life enough, and I just needed some time to let loose and enjoy. I'm happy I'm with my mom and my brother and some other friends. I am always delightful to spend this kind of moments with them, but I would be more than glad if I was with the whole family, and I don't know when that would happen. I hope soon.

And whilst waiting for the parade to start, we took lotsa picture with these people wearing these colorful costumes, and we got to exchange small talks with some of them. There was a man who told us that they spent time, money, and effort for this festival with the hope of winning a prize. I'm not sure if I hear it right, but they are farmers and the prize, they say, could help them with their crops and all that kind of stuff. My heart goes out to them, really. It's no joke to prepare all these fancy and decorative costumes. They even had to paint their whole bodies black. And they were standing and walking under the heat of the sun for looooong hours having to carry all those crazily huge headdresses and props. For me, it was a sacrifice, but perhaps, they love what they were doing and they didn't see it as a sacrifice at all. May God bless them more.

We spent the rest of the day walking, eating, getting lost, waiting, and looking for each other in a sea of people. Then, it was time to go home.

And perhaps, it's now time to leave it here, but before that, here are a few more random photos:

If you wanna see more, please head over to this page where I dump the photos from my camera roll to free up some space. =)

'Til then!



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Dreams & Visions

Thursday, January 17, 2019

Before 2019 started, I have set it a goal to journal and write down my thoughts more this year, because hey, it’s very therapeutic, plus there’s something I can read and look back to later on.

To get started was probably the hardest part. I really didn’t know where to start and consistently writing down my thoughts is really hard despite having a lot of them. Since I consider myself as still a beginner on this, I figured, maybe I can use prompts to serve as some guide on what to write about, so I took this list of questions from Pinterest, and each day, I pick one question to answer and ponder upon.

I know it’s already quite late to share this just now, but here’s my take on the first seven days:

Your biggest dream.
Before, every time someone asks me of my biggest dreams in life, career-related stuff would always be the ones on top of my head, but this time, not anymore. My biggest dream right now is to be a good wife and a mother, and be able to raise my own family well. Idk, perhaps this is what adult-ing had done to me.
What is your vision for this year?
I am seeing 2019 as a year of growth for me, growth in a way that it would push me to my limits, where I will do things that I have been wanting to do since but never had enough courage to do so just yet. It’s a year of learning a new skill, meeting and making friends with real people, going to places, trying out new things, developing some good new habits and dropping the bad ol’ ones, getting into consistency, intentional living, taking good care of myself and embracing my own skin. It’s a period of less social media and less comparison. This is gonna be a year of peace and of taking some leap.
What makes you proud of yourself?
Hmm… This is actually harder than I think it is, but okay, I am proud of myself for being who I am right now – always willing to help, 24/7 willing to understand, and always ready to lend some ears. I am proud of myself for always listening more than speaking. I am proud of myself for trying to get out of my comfort zone no matter how nervous I am. I am proud of myself for being open for growth and new learnings, for being able to inspire others in my own little ways, for making the ‘rents happy and proud of who I’ve become and yet to become. I am proud of myself for always trying to break bad ol’ habits and trying to build some new good ones even if it means hard work. I am proud of myself for always being eager to get up and start doing after that slump. I am proud of myself for simply just trying. I am proud of myself. (Quick side note: This is my favorite prompt so far. All I had in mind before I started writing were all the traits I hate about myself, but this pushed me to think of things that make me proud of myself and I realized how much the good weighs over the bad).
What’s the vacation of your dreams?
This is how I imagine my dream vacation would be: I am outside a peaceful cottage a little far away from home. I am with my husband, my mom, my siblings, and their significant others, with some kids (of my own and my siblings’) running around, being playful and having some fun. Outside of the cottage is a hammock and some trees that provide some shade around the place, and a couple of steps away is the seashore. As we chill and share some quality time, we can hear the sound of the waves and we can see the turquoise-colored water of the sea not too far from where we are. Nobody else is around except a few kind locals nearby. We share stories and laughter, basically catching up and reminiscing some good ol’ memories with the family with no screen anywhere at sight. =)
What’s your favorite dish?
I am the most indecisive person ever that my mind always goes blank every time I am being asked of what my favorites are, but the one on top of my head right now is some baked scallops (although I’m not sure if that’s even a dish). This is what I would always look for in the menu every time I get to enter a new resto, just a random fun fact you got there. *winks
One behavior you need to let go.
I think I need to stop sabotaging my own success. I need to drop all those lame excuses of “not having enough time” and that “I still deserve some chill time.” I should start doing. I want to achieve this, I want to achieve that, but I don’t work hard enough to get them. Instead of working on achieving them, I always choose to lay down and scroll through my phone endlessly, which most of the time does not really help. I need to drop the “I can’t do it” and the “what if I’ll fail?” attitude. I JUST NEED TO STOP SABOTAGING MY OWN SUCCESS. I know I can still do better.
One thing you’d like to do more.
One thing I’d like to do more is to go out, visit new places, and experience new things. Being an introvert, I always prefer to just stay in where there is no crowd and no new person to deal with, because dang, crowds and new people just suck my energy out of me. But this time, I think, having some me-time at home is completely fine, but it shouldn’t be too much. I have been settling to what is comfortable, but no, I shouldn’t anymore. I have to gather some nerves, go out, and get some thrill in life.
Growth and consistency is probably my focus for this year, and I’m sharing it here, so I could have somebody (but no one in particular) to be accountable for.

Hey, let’s create some more room for improvement and be better =)



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The Eighth of 2019

Tuesday, January 08, 2019

I just turned twenty-three, and I'm still having a hard to let things sink in. Oh no, I am not getting any younger, but of course, I'm still young.

Idk what to feel right now. All I know is, I’m grateful for this wonderful gift of life and for the little things that happened today.

My dad used to be one of the first persons to greet me on my special day with some kisses and some hugs, and since he left this earth, he never failed to be the first still. He'd usually show up in my dreams on the night before my birthday. Aahh, I miss him big time! I still could not forget how he showed his sentiments on how he is both happy and sad about me growing up too fast.

This also marks my first anniversary at work. Yep, I had my first day at work on the very day of my 22nd birthday, a precious birthday gift indeed.

I went to buy some food in the office as some little celebration for my birthday and oh my! I almost got hit by a rushing car. “Almost.”

Also, I got a free jeepney ride on the way home. Yes, a free jeepney ride on my birthday. Awesome, right? Little back story: Idk the driver but he told me that he recognized me being one of his passengers earlier today, and yeah, indeed I was. When I was about to pay, he told me it’s free because he was already about to go home and I was the last passenger that he picked up. How nice is that? I insisted to pay but he never accepted it, so I just uttered my genuine thank you to him.

And we just had a simple dinner at home with some extra food to celebrate my 23rd year of existence. I realized how I am truly blessed for having a family like mine. Superdupermegaever.
I feel like tears would run down my eyes any moment from now, but nope, this is not because I’m sad. I am actually happy — surely, truly, unarguably happy.

And that's my mega supportive mom right there. She usually would remind us that she is neutral, really, and doesn't have any favoritism among us three, but sometimes I just can't help but feel that I am her favorite. Hahaha. That's half-meant! *winks

And that's it for today!



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It's a Wrap: December 2018

Sunday, January 06, 2019

December was definitely a busy month, but hey, it’s my favorite month of all, because well... Christmas. If you don’t know yet, I love Christmas, I really do. My family has always made it a special time of the year ever since I was a kid, and up until now, I’ve brought with me the feeling that the season brings.

I grew up hanging a sock on our Christmas tree so I’d have a gift to open as soon as I wake up the next morning after Christmas Eve. I used to even write a letter to Santa, and he would write back to me with some short well wishes, but then later I realized, it was only my dad’s handwriting. *laughs*

But anyway, I’m also always excited every time I hear Jose Mari Chan’s Christmas songs because my dad used to play them first among anyone else once the “ber” months start.

I really love the holidays, and I don't know, but people seem to be extra nice this time of the year. Not to mention, I also love all those colorful lights and decorations.

Okay, I guess, enough now with this long intro.

This post is not actually all about Christmas, but a simple wrap up of how my December went based on the photos I’ve taken using the Huji app, so now, please brace yourselves for a photo-heavy entry.

My town celebrated its annual fiesta and the fam went to see what it has to offer, but then it was a little disappointing because we found nothing but just a sea of people and a food park with expensive seafood dishes, but while we were walking around, we saw my brother and his group roaming around with their drums and making some noise around the town.

December means a year is almost ending and another one is about to start. For me, it’s another set of 365 days to try putting my life together again. It’s leaving the past behind, off-loading unnecessary weights in my system and starting again with a clean slate. I am always pumped up around this time of the year. Most of the time, I do fail to maintain this kind of energy all throughout, but then at least, for quite some time, I was inspired, I was motivated, and I have tried to do things that I don’t usually do. Watching such motivational Youtube videos is really a huge help. One of my favorite channels is Lavendaire by Aileen Xu, I watch her all the time, especially in days where I feel like I'm not sure what I'm doing with my life. I also listen to her podcast. I swear, her contents are really motivational.

I painted my own nails gray. I don’t know what happened, but I just suddenly found myself enjoying some fancy nail polish on my nails. Also, I’m now gradually getting comfortable in growing my nails long, and it was also on the same month (24th) when I got a mani-pedi sesh in between some panic Christmas buying as a li’l pampering for myself.

My aunt and my cousin’s boyfriend were leaving out of the country because my uncle and my cousins cannot go home for the holidays, and so, we shared a dinner at Mang Inasal with them before they left. We weren't satisfied of their Chiken Inasal that night, though, plus everyone (except me) was looking for some chicken oil but nothing of it was found anywhere in sight.

After saying a “see you again” to my aunt and my cousin’s boyf in the airport, we decided to get some breakfast beside the beach. It was a meal with so much laughter because my cousin’s childhood friends were really funny. The two guys joked a lot.

Spent the most of December with this gal. We’re looking after my aunt’s house until she goes back. She eats a lot and she’s also making me eat a lot. Lol.

Here’s my cousin’s pit bull. He’s too playful.

Most of the time we’re bored and got nothing to do but face our phones and laptops or watch TV.

Another eating sesh with this gal.

I spent Christmas at home and I’m loving all the lights and decorations.

Played Uno with my brother and my cousins until past midnight on Christmas Day.

Here’s a stolen shot of my brother. He would hate me if he sees this. Lol.

I’m grateful to have given a 2-week break from work for the holidays, and this day I did nothing but sleep, eat, and surf the net.

I was sleeping and Tumblrin’ this day while my high school and college circles were having their respective get-together. I didn’t know where to go and I didn’t want to choose between the two groups, so I opted to just stay in.

We had some late night movie marathon and we cooked pancakes at around 11PM.

Just one random snap a day before 2018 ended.

Had some Sotanghon Batchoy with mom in between a day full of errands.

A random snap from the last day of 2018.

I've also collected some random clips of my day-to-day to life and put them all together into these videos:

And yep, that’s definitely a wrap. How did the last month of your 2018 went? =)



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sincerely, riz